150K Before WOA 2010

[agresionpower]

bus day. not much posting in here.

 

[agresionpower]

durb die durb.

 

[agresionpower]

half an hour til lunch.

 

[agresionpower]

*bacon*

 

[808Metal]

Hail and Kill

 

[808Metal]

Sorry to do this, I just really need to get it out and there's no one to talk to right now..

I've been having disturbing thoughts recently, ones that I can't get out of my head. I feel like something bad is going to happen. I've been having nightmares for the past 3 nights and it's really starting to bother me. I'll just be in bed at night and start thinking about things when I get these frightening mental images of bad things happening to my family and friends. I can't stand it anymore.. I hate it. I think it's my paranoia but I'm not sure. This is the first time something like this has happened to me.

I can't be put on meds for it because I'm already on something for my tourettes that would have bad interactions with anxiety/depression medications. I really need help right now...

Just hold tight, hang in there, this will pass, do as Quark said, try to fill your head with happy thoughts before sleeping. And like he said find people to talk to. You do need sleep, lack of it might make it worse, so try to get calm and peaceful before sleeping. Remember, you have friends here who care, we may be electronicly connected, but we're real and do really care.

 

[808Metal]

Maybe try watching upbeat and happy show's DVDs etc. look at photos that are of happy times, listen to music that makes you feel positive

 

[808Metal]

busy at work again.

 

[agresionpower]

almost time for lunch now.

 

[808Metal]

I'm tired tonight, COB ended at 1:30 am, then I hung out and talked to some fellow metal heads and met Alexi and Janne after the show, very humble friendly guys, I wish I'd brought my camera. They were signing autographs and taking photos with fans. I met two other guys from here that were at WOA 2008, we all were wearing our WOA shirts, that was VERY COOL!. I got home at 2:45 and went to sleep at 4:00, then woke up at 9:00.

 

[808Metal]

almost time for lunch now.

John is Hungry!

 

[808Metal]

Back to work tonight.

 

[808Metal]

but no work all of next week!

 

[Quark]

Thanks guys. I'll try your ideas. I'm feeling abit better than I was, which is good. My Mom thinks it's my anxiety rather than my paranoia.

I just hope it keeps getting better.

In worst case you should see a docter. Don't hesitate in this. (hope you read back though)

 

[Quark]

I'm tired tonight, COB ended at 1:30 am, then I hung out and talked to some fellow metal heads and met Alexi and Janne after the show, very humble friendly guys, I wish I'd brought my camera. They were signing autographs and taking photos with fans. I met two other guys from here that were at WOA 2008, we all were wearing our WOA shirts, that was VERY COOL!. I got home at 2:45 and went to sleep at 4:00, then woke up at 9:00.

Main thing is you had fun.

Sleep well then.