even too busy with yourself to once notice that I told you it was a really tough decision for me to invite you. Really tough! But I fought with myself and I was thinking... well Kris would be disappointed if I didn't allow him to come and well, he likes my place so much, it's probably his only chance to come here for another time since we broke up. But you don't appreciate any of that at all. That I rather care for your needs still than for mine. You didn't even notice it, it was totally understood for you from the beginning on, wasn't it?
yeah it's true that I didn't get it, I didn't see that it was a hard decision for you, but that has to do with lots of other things, like you are able to call me names all the time.
you seemed able to push me aside pretty fast and just life your life... to me it didn't look like this would be a hard decision.
but I guess with the stuff you figured about me and kris which just isn't true like I told you a million times by now it is hard for you and I do understand that.
the only thing I can do about that is tell you every time that it just isn't true.
but since you will never believe me there isn't much else I can do...