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[Lady_Wolf]

and I feel neglected, get mad and start a fight... But that has to do with my ex, he always did that. when we went someplace he always left me alone the first moment he saw his friends, and never paid any attention to me, so I felt like I was just there so he could say he had a girlfriend.
And now I am projecting that to other friends

(btw the friends of my ex where nice people, but I would not pick them as my friends, so I was always totally bored, did not know what to talk about with those people, they had really different interests and styles etc)

 

[Lady_Wolf]

I dunno what to do about it, I am so afraid I am gonna be alone again

 

[gee jay]

coz I am stupid, I have this weird way of thinking and I always feel abandoned when I am left alone at a concert or a festival

Left alone how ? Like people just get up and walk away and you don't see them anymore ?

 

[gee jay]

and I feel neglected, get mad and start a fight... But that has to do with my ex, he always did that. when we went someplace he always left me alone the first moment he saw his friends, and never paid any attention to me, so I felt like I was just there so he could say he had a girlfriend.
And now I am projecting that to other friends

Guys seem to do that alot. Or in my freinds case women do it too...

 

[Lady_Wolf]

Left alone how ? Like people just get up and walk away and you don't see them anymore ?

no its already when somebody is just talking to somebody else

 

[gee jay]

I dunno what to do about it, I am so afraid I am gonna be alone again

Your still too young to think like that. Your what 20 something ?
Finding people to be around is tough. And always changing as well. I hung out with people . then you sort of part ways, meet other people,...repeat.

 

[Lady_Wolf]

we already had a fight about that at obscene extreme, coz I had troubles with my leg and I could not stand up for long, so I sat during the times that there where no shows.. and all I saw were the backs of the people standing, so I got kinda pissed coz my friend told me that he would look after me if I got troubles with my leg again

 

[Lady_Wolf]

Your still too young to think like that. Your what 20 something ?
Finding people to be around is tough. And always changing as well. I hung out with people . then you sort of part ways, meet other people,...repeat.

but I do not meet new people, coz I am too scared for that

 

[gee jay]

no its already when somebody is just talking to somebody else

And they ignore you ? That is shitty!!
People can be total assholes.

 

[Lady_Wolf]

And they ignore you ? That is shitty!!
People can be total assholes.

but its normal that people talk to each other, but I almost never have anybody else to talk to

 

[Lady_Wolf]

and I am afraid to meet new people, coz I am scared that they wont like me, coz I always hear that I am stupid, or ugly, or that I listen to stupid music, or that my interests are weird

 

[gee jay]

and I am afraid to meet new people, coz I am scared that they wont like me, coz I always hear that I am stupid, or ugly, or that I listen to stupid music, or that my interests are weird

WOW... you are hanging around the WRONG people !!

 

[Lady_Wolf]

I only have a few friends that I talk to regularly, and just 1 that I see on a regular base....

 

[Lady_Wolf]

WOW... you are hanging around the WRONG people !!

that is not the people that I hang out with, total strangers tell me I am ugly, or when I am in Amersfoort (city next to where I live) I get laughed at or called names.

 

[gee jay]

You go social websites, like myspace and stuff right ? ( i do not )
Meet local people that way. They will have the same interests and things.