100K in 100 DAYS before WOA:08!!

[Sipyloidea]

*maps*

 

[808Metal]

I had some one-night stands that time, though I hated it. I can't really figure it out. Maybe I thought it was some kind of revenge, but I fear it was more self-punishment. To make me feel like the slut that I thought I was

Well maybe not a slut, just trying to convince ourself that we are desireable. But then again, a one night stand proves nothing, no real value because most guys are happy to jump at anyone whole let them have it. But you went through that and now it's done, don't punish yourself for it.

 

[Sipyloidea]

are you gone already?

 

[808Metal]

are you at work?

yes I am.

 

[808Metal]

that's a pity. We were just having such a "nice" talk. (Or better call it deep talk)

I could hang around another 10 more minutes or so.

 

[Sipyloidea]

Well maybe not a slut, just trying to convince ourself that we are desireable. But then again, a one night stand proves nothing, no real value because most guys are happy to jump at anyone whole let them have it. But you went through that and now it's done, don't punish yourself for it.

it's an easy saying... but how to do it is another thing. It'll always be part of my past though I'm trying to forget about it

 

[Sipyloidea]

I could hang around another 10 more minutes or so.

Do whatever you feel like. I won't hold you here

 

[808Metal]

it made me actually have a less idea of what I want. I can't feel for persons anymore because I can't figure out if it's something that I want

Well the thing is you are now skeptical, you want to be sure it's right so you don't get hurt again. Pain is a hard and powerful teacher, and something we don't forget.

 

[Sipyloidea]

Does your wife know about your feelings and injuries? Or are you trying to do your best for her and not make her notice anything?

 

[Sipyloidea]

Well the thing is you are now skeptical, you want to be sure it's right so you don't get hurt again. Pain is a hard and powerful teacher, and something we don't forget.

that's so deeply right

 

[808Metal]

it's an easy saying... but how to do it is another thing. It'll always be part of my past though I'm trying to forget about it

We have all done things we regret or are not proud of, it's part of being human. Don't punish yourself for it. Just know that was not the real you, just a phase you went through due to the pain.

 

[Sipyloidea]

Does your wife know about your feelings and injuries? Or are you trying to do your best for her and not make her notice anything?

In my last relationship I told him that there was something about me and that I'd tell him, if he wants to know... he never asked for it and I'm certainly glad about it... I still feel myself more as a committer than a victim and don't want people to judge me for it

 

[Smoo_lord]

of course not...

Smoo e.g. also told about something like that. No details so far though

Yeah it messed me up for a while

We are no way the only ones to have suffered heartbreak that's for sure.

Yeah bro, but it still can be devastating

 

[808Metal]

Does your wife know about your feelings and injuries? Or are you trying to do your best for her and not make her notice anything?

Well we have talked them over, she has been through worse than I have so we have helped each other with those things. I love her as much as I could love anyone, I'm I just lost some of what I could have shared with her instead of on that ex girlfriend, I'm more cynical now. Not as romantic I guess, not sure if that's the best way to describe it.

 

[Smoo_lord]

so you are saying you cannot put 100% trust into it then adam?