so, i think i have seriously came to the conclusion im better off, now that i am away from stress and crap, not smoking pot. i kept my last of my pipe and bat just in case i needed them, but i am going to throw them out. i like being clear minded and not all "
hey man, like, yeah dude, i want some twinkies with spam and cheese dip with some marshmellows and cool whip man dude man." i just dont know how many times im going to have these revelations when im clear minded, but this is the third. they always say the third time is the charm, but i hopeing this one will keep me free from the herb that grows so naturally and even though it looks so beautifully i must not have the need ya see, i can act strange by focusing my mind on certain things and act crazy in a good way. maybe this post isnt making sense at all, but its not supposed to. there is a way to alter the mind without drugs. meditation and mind over matter brings out the second sight through the hidden third eye. and what you see then is even better than any acid trip, or shroom trip you have been on ever. when your mind encounters these trips, no need to freak out or act frightened, its just your mind telling you a couple things:
A you need to change something in your life to reach your potential so you can succeed, or
B you are doing a good job with your life, and here is a little animated vision to keep you in a happy state.
i myself have seen both, a many of times in the past, and b more recently, and it made me laugh. maybe that is where the source of the happiness is coming from, my mind telling me im doing a good job, and to keep on that path so i can be even more happier in the end.
wow, i think i have found it out, i am on the path i needed to be on all this time, and if i leave it now, who knows what could happen. people told me that only true happiness is found with god and religion, im no religious person, but i believe i jesus, and i always have. so what is my true happiness stemed from besides my body telling me im doing a good job? maybe its just the nature of things, and the nature taking over. no need for a god, no need for the book. i read enough, even though it doesnt seem like it. i am right where i need to be, i am having a....whats that thing called, i forget. but nobody is going to read this, way to fucking long

oh well. life goes on, and im going to stop rambling on.